It seems like I will never get used to large crowds of people. Especially those who I do not know well. In the past, I might have made a loud entrance. Now, impossible. Mellowed up. Somehow, to me celebrating and partying has lost its flavour. Why? I do not know.

Never thought that it would happen, but stress has finally caught up to me. I am once again questioning my own abilities and my judgement. I am totally out of my league, everything is just so hmm... unexpected. Oh well.